sorted out.

以前。现在。将来。都一样……
我就是这样让你们伤脑经……

可是我不可能为了成为你们理想中的那样，而改变……
真的。我做不到…… 我真的尝试过了……太累了，做一个不是自己的自己……

i'm taking it all too hard again?!
maybe all you all wish is a more sensible gal.. but.. try thinking how's its like for me. stuck in the middle, having so much to give in to. sometimes all i wish is.. someone to give in to me too, all out of initiative and not because i whine, i complain, i cried.

it's tiring. i dont like it.
.... i kept thinking abt it today. still.. i wont change for the sake of being the better person.

i'm fine with who i am right now. :)
i know you all will still love me all the same.. even if i refuse to change. it's just a problem that'll always exist.

everything's back to normal again :)
peace with my mother. peace with family.

i promised them a seafood dinner night! HAHA when i get my next pay :D
because i earn more and because i feel rich and because money dont matter that much to me, anyway. enough to spend/pay sch feee can alr.

=)